apologies in advance

they say that smell is the sharpest sense; that it can pull you back to a memory faster than a visual cue or a sound. something tonight prompted me to go back to ani. listening to 'little plastic castle' certainly gave the aforementioned theory a run for its money. i played the album relentlessly when i first got it freshman year. it was the first strong female voice i'd heard, and despite my upper-middle class, suburban background, i identified with her. (for which she would probably hate me.)

then 2nd semester of freshman year started, and i left the album for the bright eyes, andrew bird, the weakerthans, and others. then, the beginning of sophomore year, and eventually i left a lot more than just my music.

the beginning of 2nd semester sophomore year, i dug out ani again and listened voraciously. when i listen to songs like swandive, loom, independence day, and not a pretty girl, it shakes me up. details i haven't considered in years--the putrid yellow tiles in our bathroom--hit. the difference is now they hit as memories, as the past, as something that was lived through, and there is an odd comfort in them for that reason.

our senses are for taking in our conscious present, for being alert and aware of our current situation. they can throw us back to a past, and yet they have no reach into the future.

sort of like the odyssey

so. i believe we
have a mouse
visitor. based to the
ongoing ruckus last
night, feral cat may
have gotten it. just
wanted to warn you
either way!
to: alison downs
sent: mar 16, 7:49 am


--immediate response has been lost due to human error.--


from: alison downs
haha yes. well if
tilly did catch it
(awesome
mar 16, 8:18 am


1. thank god you are
the roommate you
are 2. not sure.
thats why i'm not
entirely convinced
its dead. also, she
better not put the
carcass in my
slippie.
to: alison downs
sent: mar 16, 8:25 am


from: alison downs
NOT DEAD YET! i
just saw it run from
her. oh my god. ha.
whoa. but tilly is on
the hunt.
mar 16, 8:36 am


omg! is it missing
limbs? i only signed
on to live with one
pair of whiskers!
to: alison downs
sent: mar 16, 8:38 am


from: alison downs
haha seriously.
looked like it was
all still intact.
brown little thing
with a high pitched
little scream. . .
this is clearly going
to be an epic battle.
mar 16, 8:44 am

12 words

twelve words to succinctly describe so many in our generation who do exactly what everyone else deems appropriate, mainly graduate, marry, move, procreate.


"we closed our minds, we shut our traps / we built a house, the house collapsed"
-when we were alive, the thermals

signs

fiddle lesson

zack: the rolls are mainly accomplished through the swooping bow and a strong rhythm of the ornament. swooping and good rhythm.

me: so many things require swooping and good rhythm.

zack: yes, a little metaphor for life.